Monday, December 31, 2012

life in review pt. 1


I live with no regrets because I know that everything that happens does for a reason and whether I understand it or not, at the time, is of no matter...at the time.  example; I worked for a while as an office manager for a very small minority owned company and that experience gave me the confidence to start my own business.  that was one of the most difficult years of my life because I never thought that things would be so hard and that my business would end the way it did.  that experience led me to being the only administrative support for an entire sales department of over 30 people, which was extremely challenging to say the least.  while there I worked for a very difficult person who knew that she had more emotional problems but she wanted to refused to deal with them appropriately.  but I also met some really great people of whom i'm still in contact with today.  when I left there because of limited growth potential I worked for a major tourist attraction in a male dominated department and met some really great people and some not so great people.  one of those people was another difficult person with emotional issues that was so far in denial that when I brought some things to her attention she refused to see it and eventually had to be treated later for the very thing I mentioned to her.  my experience with the other difficult person helped me in dealing with this difficult person so while everyone else was talking about how hard it was to work with her and they wished she would leave or get fired, I would sit back and just listen.  they also didn't understand how I was able to get along with her.

 while in that position I was promoted to another position that made me the supervisor of two people and office manager and assistant to a director and of course my previous experience prepared me for all of this responsibility.  during this time the two people that worked under me were sometimes very difficult to work with, one in particular, to the point of insubordination.  the one would come right to the edge and because she knew all of the guidelines she wouldn't cross the line totally.  there were so many times that I wanted to fire that person but I could not because of the situation we were in as a company and the fact that my department was severely shorthanded.  that situation took me to a new level in patience and also taught me about my tolerance level.

that position, responsibility, experience led me to the position I now hold where I am the main admin support, the office manager and I answer to the vp of a major department.  the company is going through major transitions, I supervise two people (well used to, had to fire one the other day), my office alone holds 100+ seats and I manage the entire office, oh and I forgot to mention that this is the new headquarters for this company built from the studs out new as well.  so much responsibility but my past experiences have led me to this position and I know that all that I've learned then will help me now and what I learn now will lead my to my next experience.  so glad for learning from the experiences.

learn from your experiences people and live life as if you have so that you don't repeat the bad in order to finally get to the good.

peace and blessings wonderful people!

jai ar

 

new life revolution

I've been trying for the last few hours to take a nap before service tonight.  we're going to watch night service at church and I haven't been to one in quite some time, about 6 years, so i'm looking forward to ringing in the new year in worship, praise and thanksgiving.  that takes me to another thing; I've been trying to figure out what to say to end the old and begin the new year for the last day or so and I have no mapped out words yet so i'm just going to let them flow free.

in 2012 I've encountered so many things and not all of them bad but of course not all of them good.  you've got to take the good with the bad and the bad with the good and hopefully understand that the bad helps you to appreciate the good more and more.

the words restoration and obedience keep coming to mind over and over again.  so for 2013 I would like all of those things that I lost in 2012 that I was supposed to hold on to restored and done so abundantly.  not just because they were mine but because they were promised to me.  as for the obedience portion, I want the will and desire to be obedient to those things that God called me to do because I know they have a point and He has a purpose for them and me.  my only reason for being so disobedient in 2012 that I can think of is the uncertainty of the unknown; what would happen to me if I did all of those things He told me to do?  what would happen if everyone knew and I either failed or succeeded?  you know the answer I've come back with...who cares?  so I will do as I am directed to do by my Father and Savior and won't concern myself with the why (me), how (do I) or who (cares).

that all leads me to what I call my new life revolution and not new year's resolution.  some things are about to change and not all of them are going to be easy, not all of them will be liked by others but I have to do what i'm guided to do in His name.  this year I want His will done in my life and not my own will, this year I want all things that He promised me that I let slip through my fingers restored, this year I will be obedient to His will for me.

I pray that so many others have the same thing in their lives, breath the same air that God breaths for them, live the life that He wants them to live and has all that He has for them.

peace and blessings wonderful people and happy new year!

jai ar

Marriage

Marriage is a selfless act; you must be prepared to give, compromise, adjust, sacrifice, surrender, submit, work, pray, believe, struggle, fight, cry, disagree, soothe, step back, step up, be uncomfortable, etc.; If you are not ready to do any of the above then you are not ready to say "i do" Too many people, both young and old, seem to think just because they've known each other for a long time or lived together first that is going to be glittered rainbows and marshmallow stars. Marriage will be a breeze. Let me tell you that even with God it's not easy because you are dealing with flawed and damaged human beings.

Peace

There is such beauty in being blessed with peace (of mind) (of heart) ( of spirit) (of soul) (of body).  You can be in the middle of chaos and still be at peace.  There are going to be some around you that try to disrupt your peace for whatever reason, either they don't know or they don't care.  Remove yourself and pray for them, for yourself and anyone they may encounter.  Whether you work with them, live with them or just happen upon them, remove yourself and pray.  Peace and blessings!