your destiny is calling

as I began my journey to get to know God better I began to see a lot more clearly what it is that He wants me to do in this life, I began to see what He has in store for me.  along that journey, seeing those things and knowing what I know I began to pull back from my connection to Him not even realizing that that is what I was doing.

there were/are certain things that I was directed in the Spirit to do and I chose not to do them.  however, it didn't look at the moment as if I had chosen not to do them, it appeared to me initially as if things had gotten in the way and stopped me or blocked me from doing them.  going through financial strains, having family issues, not being happy in my job and not having any luck in finding another one, getting married and focusing on the new marriage and husband, dealing with the fall out of children trying to adjust to having a man in the house.  everything under the sun is to blame for me not doing what I clearly heard Him say do, that is until I actually sat and analyzed and reconnected and that is when I figured out that I had put on hold everything that I was called to do because I had a fear or distrust maybe in what it would turn out to be.  I had even convinced myself that because I was not ready to do those things that He was not ready for me to do them.  someone asked me just a week or so ago if I knew my purpose and I told them yes.  he said you really know what it is that God has called you to do it and you aren't doing it, why not?

it wasn't a fear or distrust in God, it was a fear/distrust in my being able to do what it is that he told me to do.  but why did i have that fear knowing full well that anything that He has called me to do He will help me do.  if I do what i'm supposed to do He will do what I can not do.  as I began to meditate more and talk more about certain things it was clear to me that I needed to get back on track for me to fulfill my destiny not just for myself or my family but for my God.  how do I feel when my children don't do something that I have clearly told them to do or they do it half way right?  I feel betrayed, hurt, disappointed and that's how I imagine God must feel knowing that He told me what to do and I clearly heard it but I only did some of it half way right and didn't do some of it at all.

time to get back on track people, time to focus.  what are you being called to do that you are not doing?  what do you clearly hear but are ignoring?  get in motion people and fulfill your destiny!

peace and blessings God's people,

jai ar