8/30/13 thoughts

My mind is so cluttered lately and it makes it difficult for me to focus, extremely difficult.  This only means I need to get back into my deep prayer and meditation lifestyle because with clutter comes chaos and with chaos comes catastrophe.  Deep prayer and meditation are the only things that help me move forward and upward.  So many things to write, so many things to do because my life is about to change and I have to be ready for it.

I have a few books in my belly which must be birthed; I started one of them years ago and I keep putting it down but I need to pick it back up and finish it.  I have a degree to finish and I've already started that, just finished my first class and start my second and third one next week.  My new boss started a couple of weeks ago so i have to regain focus at work because that's been off lately and although I know God works out everything, I can't afford to lose my job over my own neglect.  I've already made it known to her that my goal is upward movement and I know to get there I must work hard and prove myself worthy.  Hard to do that when my mind is cluttered.

My peace and my relationship with God is most important and I must get back to that and now.

Peace and blessings you awesome people!  Jai Ar

chaos

i've been dealing with a lot of chaos in my life lately and once upon a time when i worked for a life coach, she informed me that usually when chaotic event after chaotic event enters your life it usually means that you are off-center, off-balance and need to refocus your energy on more positive activities, thoughts and prayers.

last week, on my husband's birthday, so many chaotic things happened; 1, we got into a huge argument about a male friend of mine. 2, our car broke down. 3. we couldn't get a rental. 4. to get the car towed and repaired over the holiday cost us all of our money in the bank. 5. this has put our account into major overdraft because we mailed out checks to pay bills.  6. husband and i argue again about that male friend. 7. the morning of my son's ribbon pinning ceremony i get into a car accident, where 8. i go to the e.r. and accumulate a $200 bill for the copay and we also now have a $500 deductible to pay for whatever car repairs will have to be made.

my conclusion; i have not prayed and meditated the way i did prior to my marriage so my goal is to carve out that time i need every day to do just that.  my husband is high maintenance emotionally so i have to learn how to balance his desires with my own piece/peace of mind and calmness.

for all who feel that their world is turning upside down, filled with chaos and frenzied activity in a bad way needs to stop and take the time to just breath, pray and meditate.  if you are not one that believes in a higher power of any kind, i believe in God/Jesus, but if you don't then at least find that one positive thing that relaxes your mind and focus on it for at least 15 minutes every day and this will get you back on track over time.  also over time once you get good at meditating you'll learn how to take shorter meditation breaks that provide that quick rejuvenation.  remember, don't let anyone or anything know you off your pedestal of peace.  no one should have that much control and influence in your life that they keep you from finding balance, take back the control over your life.

peace and blessings!