Crazy ride

Yesterday was my husband's birthday and i wished him a very happy birthday and told him to saddle up for a wild and crazy day, well i spoke that thing into existence because that's exactly what it was.  We started the day out fine, loving each other and being happy and i decided it was time for me to start getting ready for church.  While i'm getting ready all hell was breaking loose and the next thing i know we are having a major disagreement, keep in mind this is his birthday and i had some big things planned for him that day.  So we have this disagreement and in the midst of it he says he doesn't want to do the things i planned, i said ok fine and began getting my things together. 

We go to church, service is good and i fess up to my being wrong and apologize for it, i thought everything was fine.  We leave church and head to the restaurant he wants to eat at and on the way there i almost hit someone who jumps out in front of me and somehow the shock on the driver side breaks...wtfoolishness!  We make it to our destination and call a tow truck, he calls a family member and we get the car towed to a repair shop but we still need a car.  We drive all around trying to get a rental and can't get one because neither of us has a major credit card, that's a story for another time.  We then drive to another relative's home and sit there for a bit when his aunt comes in and says we can use her car, hallelujah!  We leave there and get to the hotel, one of the things i had planned.  We check in and change clothes so we can go to the play he wanted to see.  After we laughed our heads off, by the way Madea Gets a Job is super funny, we leave the theater and go get something to eat and go back to the hotel to relax.

It cost us all of the money we had to get the car towed and repaired so we are officially broke and i have to call both my landlord and insurance company and explain why both the rent and insurance is going to be late, ugh.

I had no idea that yesterday was going to be so adventurous and i'm glad it's over and we survived it.

The reason for our big blow out is a topic for another discussion but it involves jealousy, insecurity, mistrust and the feeling of betrayal.

Peace and blessings good people!

Jai Ar

Birthday shopping

Sitting here wondering what this day is going to bring.  Today is my youngest son's birthday and i want it to be a great day for him and i will do all i can to make that happen.  Took him to the mall yesterday so he could pick out his own gift, tried to buy him shoes because he needs some decent sneakers, he said no.  Tried to buy him clothes because he could use a new casual outfit, he said no.  So we're walking through the mall and my husband has bought himself a new shirt and hat for his birthday next week, tried to get me to buy for myself and i said no, it's not about us it's about the soon to be 14yr old.  Finally we walk by a watch kiosk and this is what my son decides he wants, a blue, rubberized watch, thank goodness because i thought this was going to be a long process.  I did get myself something before we left, we put my upgraded wedding ring set on hold, woohoo!  My husband had been trying to do that since we got married and i kept saying no, not yet, but now we've done it and i'm excited.

Peace and blessings good people!

Ignorance

good morning beautiful people,

despite the fact that this whole summit hoopla has taken over my work place it has not been bothersome to me one bit.  why?  simply put...ignorance.  my position, although a nice one, is not one of much affluence or influence so i have not been given or told any critical information at all.  there are people running around here like the proverbial chicken with no head and losing what little bit of peace, sleep and sanity they do have all because they have some "important" role to play in this whole game.  i even have people asking me about cleaning a kitchen area because the extra enforcements will be forced to use that area and it, in it's present state, is rather embarrassing.  i told that person that the people that frequent that kitchen are responsible for keeping it clean and i didn't think it was fair to ask someone who doesn't use it at all to clean it. 

all of the things that are happening now are the last minute, pull it altogether stuff that seems to take the longest to smooth out.  you know those piddly things like making sure every one has the proper work schedule and the proper credentials, making sure that everyone is clear on how to get into this crazed place and knows where they can and can not park.  you know, the little stuff.

this campus is an absolutely beautiful place already but they way it's been transformed in certain areas is amazing to me.  i love seeing venues transformed from their usual state to something extravagant and breathtaking, at times.  the stagers and dressers are wonder workers to say the least, great job guys!  but again, having the information they had i know they were tightly wound and on edge.  there were spaces that were just that, spaces, but were transformed into rooms.   we have the cleaning staff that can only go into certain areas at certain times and a lot of them did not make it to the weekend phase of things, but they have managed to keep this huge place with their limited staff.  we have those that have to make sure the escalators and elevators are working properly during this whole thing and of course they are working with a limited staff as well.  transportation and traffic are a mess with all of the street closures and restricted areas surrounding this complex.  those on the outside looking in never really comprehend what all goes in to putting a production/event such as this one.  most just sit back and say, ok it will be done and ready when i get there.  they have no idea that people are running themselves ragged in order to pull this thing off with no hang ups.  all of these people behind the scenes making it happen.  all of these concerned and involved people pulling it together, again, like a chicken without a head and i'll just keep blissfully walking around in my ignorance and maybe even leisurely clean my office, so as not to be embarrassed by the extra enforcements that will be "sweeping" through the building.

peace and blessings good people,
jai-ar

Supervisory skills

I like my current job, i enjoy being a supervisor, not in the sense of "yeah, now you answer to me tricks and the fate of your career is in my hands" , but more in the sense of me seeing that all of my previous ground work is paying off and being recognized, that this is prepping me for my next career move, it's teaching me more about myself and others.</p>
<p>I had a situation yesterday where there were three people conversing and person #1 said i want to leave early and person #2 said me too, can we leave early and person #3 stated that they had to talk with their respective bosses, well person #2 stated in a very terse tone "she ain't my boss i keep telling you that, she is not my boss, she don't sign my paychecks", this was said in reference to me being that i am her direct supervisor.  Person #1 is a listener, person #2 is a reactor and person #3 is a mess  starter, an instigator.  to clarify, i was not eavesdropping, i was actually standing outside my office going through papers and these three were in the office next to mine, with the door open.  I spoke with both persons #2 & 3 and expressed my disappointment in both and explained why it could have been a problem for #2, #2 apologized and #3 said he didn't understand why it was a problem.  This conversation, although in jest, could be classified as insubordination and could have gotten #2 terminated.

This is what i learned about myself; my patience has lengthened even though my tolerance for bull has lessened.  What i have learned about others; some people don't have anything better to do with their lives other than start bull, either they are miserable and/or bored, and they get their kicks off seeing others squirm.  Some people have not learned the art of analytical restraint and while they had no intention of harming themselves or others, they do and finally some people know to sit back and listen, discern what's really going on and just keep quiet.

Be careful what you say people because the power of life and death is in the tongue and one word can make the difference between you being employed or not.

Peace and blessings wonderful people!

living in your purpose

so many of us are not living in our life's purpose for whatever reason; fear of failure, lack of finances, feeling as if we don't have enough time or lack of support. whatever that reason is you are not doing yourself, your family, your future any good if you are not moving in that purpose. you are stifling your blessings, you are hindering your future generations, shaming your ancestors and insulting your Creator. failure is a lesson, learn from it and be/do/make better the next go around, finances are not a stumbling block because sometimes all you need to do is write the idea down and then speak it, you will earn a little at a time to put towards the big picture. time does not recycle once it is gone it is gone and if you are spending time talking about what you can not do you are wasting time that should have been put towards actually doing it. if all you have is you and the Creator saying that you can, that's all you need, the others will come aboard as needed. move forward in your purpose people! (i'm talking to myself too)

Technology

Woohoo bought a new tablet that i can blog from! Hopefully that will make me more inclined being that i bought it because i hate lugging the laptop and the cell is too small to blog from.  Also making it easier to type notes for the book and my spoken word moments.  Loving technology right now!

Peace and blessing all!

fighting depression

the spirit of depression is tremendously overpowering but you have been provided with the will, courage and resources to fight it. don't let it drag you down and keep you down, fight with whatever energy you have left in you. reach out to someone even if you think you may be bothering them, they may not be able to help you directly but may be able to point you in the right direction. while you are going through this fight for you life minimize or even eliminate exposure to those people and things that may trigger the depressive feelings in you and surround yourself with those that can truly uplift and encourage you. fight, don't give up! peace and blessings GoOD people!